deevus

I know I've done some things in the past I didn't really think that they just might last Six long years and I still feel the same Prepare myself for a dream of shame I can't comprehend my own thoughts For six long years this battle I've fought I want to move on but its holding me back Like a dead tree branch, its strength I lack The girl I love hates me, for that I'm sure I let it control me, for pain I adore Wasting my life and wasting my time Never look back or your fate is mine

You are so beautiful to me, So why do you play like a fool? The scars on your skin. The pain in your mind. Laughter like a child, as it echoes in eternity. The way that you be, And when i couldnt see. To change like a butterfly, I hate the way you cry. The times that you just feel, that life is an expendable comodity. Shallow are these waters, that pull at your feet. They give you life, And thats just what they take. Chorus * You can see me Im here And not going anywhere. *

Pale blue panes in a sky full of wispy clouds Floating where no one can reach Gravity wont hold me now, happily above That place where time holds no sympathy The ground is damp when I wake Sunlight beads off the dew As the bugs chatter with the breeze And the leaves try to quiet the noise Radiating - the sun brushes away the chill Of a morning where the birds wake the insects And memories lace the clouds into pictures Of a spring where the flowers whispered of love I remember that place now Time flys by like the clouds above Clinging to the sky as it samples life Looking down; on the way life moves Everything seems so perfect

Likely am I to love to hold, The one from which my kindness sold. Feathered felt from a holy kiss, Greater life inside my bliss. Over time I thought we'd blend, Played by love; Hope we send. Beloved here to hold forever, My gut says we're ending never. Little did I know that today, This feeling that I had would fray. Who thought that all the time I gave, Would mean naught in this deadly wave? Blinded with the lovers tears, This life I had; My hand smears. Passion for humanity, no longer exempt, Purges my pessimistic contempt.

When it comes around You're always too slow to jump You may have missed an opportunity Of your lifetime, and mine I wish i'd overheard what they were saying It wasn't true It was just a misunderstanding Do you ever lie in the dark Thinking coarse thoughts With your eye on the light Under the door? Arms keeps a distance from your heart Ready to fire without warning Its all in the eye of the beholder

The top of the hill is passed Its all downhill from hereon I see life staring me in the face To want to possess what I dont Masses have those in their place Back up the hill I must climb For what I feel is an emotional crime Consort to my mind so I love Though kicking and screaming, I must shove Under my breath I muster my courage

Ill-timed feelings plague me, Pain afflicted, anxiety relief, Tipsy turvey, mind unproportioned, Fix my unending ungracious grief. Avalanche offset, pebble powered, Positioned in the negative dimension. Anti-clock; Minute decisions last, Interminded power-boost, creating tension. Incessantly destructive moderation, Cry for thy passion; My gender inverse, Let love loose; lay-off contemplation, Mirror my middle to mind; Converse. Calming thy raging inferno inside, Not seeing, loving, doing; Live, Disjointed causing withdrawal to thee, Love me, hold me, kiss me; Give.

Just as you gather yourself again Your feet are pulled out from under you The friends who were loyal and trusting Realise the results are just in * They've played me like a fool Loved me like a rubber band Stretched and cracked and split in two They've played me like a fool Loved me like a rubber band And its just... * Blame it on competition Dont you love it when I'm sorry? The ground hurts my bare feet Running laps over some creep Didn't you ever feel like taking it back? Making it like white and black Take a pick and let it stick Theres no excuses for what you missed * They've played me like a fool Loved me like a rub

You can't trick me with your smile That way you look When I think you're sorry I can see through the hair that covers your face The innocence of a butterfly on a morning in spring How you flutter around, without a care For the one that cared so much Innocence of a warm blanket The holes in an old shirt Won't hide what you've been doing I'll drive you around Why'd I pick you up? You gotta love the way, How I don't cough up The things I wanted to say And who I thought Was to blame Chorus * I was led by your smile And I know you're innocent Who am I to think I wasn't to blame? Did you hear me, Speaking the truth? * I've